Until the day comes...

Tonight I went to an event party for work which is an opening of a renovation of Biotherm White D-Tox. It's all good to see a little live concert, had yummy cocktail, met former work colleagues, to be a former work colleaque and a new comer. I had fun but...

On the way back, I thought about one bit that one of my work colleagues told a story of her ex-boss whom passed away due to cancer while that person was still working for the company. I know that the company might have nothing to do with his/her cancer but this reminds me a story of my own friend who passed away exactly 3 years ago. Back then, I thought I would live my live better because we don't know when death will take us away. I took a SCUBA diving course as I determined. I had BIG love and failed terribly. I quit my job and went to Australia and found another love, before I lost it again....and now I'm wandering around it.

Now I'm back into the same country working with the same company with similar job and workload. Last month (January 2011), I could tell I was not happy with workload. I have a strong self-motivation to work very well on the brands I handle and the result was great but I'm so exhausted. I can easily notice I don't have my personal life anymore by simply counting the frequency I could salsa....zero per week!

I think I need to change...perhaps start with speaking to someone who has authorisation but deep inside, I'm not sure whether this is enough. Perhaps it's not the number of headcount I'm looking for. Perhaps it's just me. I have to find this out. I think before Jan 2011, I was happy with work. I want it back maybe....

I have been sad on and off in the past few weeks just because I felt like I was betrayed by someone, a disgraceful story. However, looking at it now. Maybe I should try to forget it but it's going to be hard. Sometimes forgetting and forgiving are better than confrontation I'm not sure. I'll have to choose one I guess. What I know now is I have a short life ..it's too short to be sad for a long time. From the plan, I have about 10-12 years to go. Perhaps it's a time to count down until the day comes.....

140 months to go....

P.S. I hope you have a reasonably (or more) happy life. If not, you'd better find a solution quickly! :-D